Don’t know about you, but when I’m feeling tired and over scheduled I can become overly sensitive and a tad emotional. Finding myself there this week, I lashed out unnecessarily at one of my colleagues. I have since apologised. Took me six days to do so. Two spent personally justifying my behaviour, two determining a solution to the situation that caused my reaction in the first place and two more recognising the impact my actions might have had on the greater team.
Thing is, I’d let myself down. I had failed to live by my personal charter of being a positive influence, a level headed, calm, collected role model for the team. Yep. Time to apologise. And I thank Eleanor Roosevelt (1884 – 1962) for that. Why? Flipping through an old Frankie magazine I came across several quotes for which she is famed:
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent
A woman is like a tea bag – you can’t tell how strong she is until you put her in hot water
You must do the thing you think you cannot do
Damn that woman had a point (or three). A week of serious reflection, contemplation and analysis of the right thing to say; a solid apology crafted, possibly aided by a little wine self medication, all quite an exhaustive business really. And then I came across this little gem:
Amen to that sister! And I just know my colleagues would concur.